I *believe* April and I have some thing in common today, I *think* we both have baby Dr. appointments.
So April I want updates!!
Today I have my much much much looked forward to sonogram. Not the one where I will be able to tell the gender but the one where we more or less pinpoint a due date.
And I? Am a bundle of stress and nerves. I will be the first one to tell you that Mommy Brain
did it's job in making me forget much of that pregnancy. But I don't remember being this
paranoid last time. I mean up in my head I'm sure I'm being paranoid and I keep telling myself that but it isn't helping.
I'm full of:
OMG Please don't tell me that I am Weeks less pregnant than I think I am.
Please don't let me be to much further along than I think.
What if THE WORST has happened? - This one is fueled by the fact that the Doppler thing did not pick up a heart beat and we were told it may not but still. Me=Paranoid
What if I'm not really pregnant and some thing is just wrong? - Now on this one I"m sure the DR would have called to tell me this by now but still I can't shake that one.
I'm worried because so far this pregnancy has been a breeze compared to Gabby's. I mean what with only Hailing the Porcelain Gods three maybe four times total and only due to allergy issues.
So seriously I keep telling my self to take a deep breath and be positive. And keep repeating my fertility prayer "Please Please let this be a girl. The thought of a boy terrifies me, they are sooooooooo weird. But if it is a boy it will still get all the love it can stand."
So paranoid me is desperately awaiting 4:30 to come. When most if not all of these fears will be put to rest.